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Grace

Remembering Ruth Lilly.

by Christian Wiman

When Ruth Lilly died in late December, I got a call from a reporter whose first question was about what I felt. I thought I was prepared for any question, but this one—the most obvious one, you might think—gave me pause. As readers of this magazine will know, Poetry—and poetry—have benefited greatly from Ruth Lilly’s generosity and love of the art. Even before the immense gift to this magazine eight years ago, she had created fellowships for younger writers, established a major prize for a poet’s lifework, and endowed a permanent chair for a poet at Indiana University. Not everyone has approved, though. “Willy Lilly Nilly” was the title of one piece about Ms. Lilly’s bequest in 2002, which Slate inexplicably reprinted as a kind of callous obituary this past January. The New York Times notice of her death seemed equally off-track and condescending. Behold the whims of the rich, these writers implied, floating so dreamily, so untouchably above us all.

There are some sufferings, though, that money can’t protect you from. Depression is one of these, and by all accounts Ms. Lilly was afflicted in a major way. It is easy to concentrate on the suffering, or on the eccentricities that were produced by it—easy, and lazy. For somehow while buried in her own despair, which was so intense and oppressive that for the bulk of her life she hardly left her home, Ruth Lilly began to give away her billion-dollar inheritance. It was a trickle at first, and centered on educational and cultural institutions; then that trickle became a flood. It would take me several pages to list all the recipients of her largesse. She gave millions of dollars to found one of the first hospice programs in the country, and millions more to create a shelter for battered women and children. She funded a rehab program for developmentally disabled adults and children, and a separate one for people with brain injuries, and the construction of sports facilities for inner-city youths, and . . . well, you get the idea.

Is there not something supremely admirable, even heroic, here? To have inherited a fortune and an illness at the same time, to have fought off the latter in order to give away—perhaps by means of giving away—the former; to have transformed one’s own abstract and overwhelming unhappiness into the concrete and lasting happiness of others; to have done all this and asked for nothing in return? Depression intensifies, even as it poisons and deadens, one’s sense of self. Anyone who has experienced this, or even been around someone experiencing it, knows how excruciatingly difficult it is to make the least gesture toward the world. And here is a life of such gestures. Here is a heart that, though blighted with sadness, yet flowered in thousands of others.

I am one of those others. In my mid-twenties I received a Ruth Lilly Fellowship that kept me afloat and able to write for twelve crucial months. That program, which was established by Ms. Lilly in 1989, has now grown to support five young writers a year. I was also at the event in 2002 when news of the gift to Poetry was first made public. I had no idea then how my own life would be bound up with that gift, nor how real and far-reaching its effects would be. The Poetry Foundation, which was formed in 2003, now brings poetry into the lives of some nineteen million people a year. (See our website for a detailed list of our programs.) Even as I write this, construction is beginning on a home for the Foundation, a public space that will be in Chicago for good, in every sense of that phrase.

A few of us from the Poetry Foundation traveled to Indianapolis for Ms. Lilly’s memorial service. News was just coming out that yet another two hundred million dollars would be going to charitable causes upon her death, which meant that she’d essentially given away her entire fortune. The memorial was packed, perfectly choreographed, and quite beautiful, but it was also impermeable in a way: you couldn’t quite put your finger on the emotional tenor. We are all in some ultimate sense opaque to each other. A public image compounds that opacity. Solitude and illness compound it further. Sitting there in that sober cathedral, I felt glad that, by all accounts, in her last years Ruth Lilly had found some degree of relief and contentment among friends and family. I felt shocked and thankful that, because of the will of one woman, the great roaring engine of American capitalism had been made to serve the interests of learning, healing, and art. And I felt—as all of us from the Foundation did, and do—lucky and proud to have a small part in passing on this generosity.

Originally Published: March 1, 2010

COMMENTS (8)

On March 1, 2010 at 11:54am Francisco Aragon wrote:
Moving tribute. Thanks.

On March 1, 2010 at 3:38pm Joseph Hefta wrote:
As someone who is privileged to see the
grace and generosity of philanthropists (of
all means) every day, I was especially
moved by your objections to the way Ms.
Lilly's gifts have been so archly portrayed,
especially by those who ought to know
better. Thanks for sticking up for her and,
by extension, to all who care enough to
give back. When gifts are offered, the right
answer is, "Thank you."

On March 2, 2010 at 8:33am Wyn Cooper wrote:
I read this piece in the print issue when it arrived last week, and was as moved by it then as I am reading it today.

On March 2, 2010 at 12:28pm Rosemarie Rowley wrote:
I too was moved by this beautifully written tribute, especially the insights that it is difficult to think of others when depressed. What a wonderful legacy, and while poets are not the most benevolent of fraternities or sororities, their work is deserving, and there is grace to be found in huge measure here.

On March 2, 2010 at 1:13pm Geneva Lorrain wrote:
Again, thank you for writing about this dear, dear lady who gave more than what she was given in financial terms, she gave of herself.

On March 2, 2010 at 7:22pm Bean wrote:
Beautiful, thank you for sharing.

On March 3, 2010 at 6:57am Adam Lipscomb wrote:
The only thanks that philanthropists often get is a smug reaction to their wealth. Generosity is not a result of abundance, but of big-hearted-ness. Her life should challenge all of us to have heart in similar ways. Thank you for this.

On March 3, 2010 at 6:47pm Geneva Lorrain wrote:
Mr. Lipscomb, I have also seen anger towards philanthropists too. I am sure she saw it all but ignored them and gave anyhow. You are right about generosity being one of big-hearted-ness. She was an inspiration.

People used to get angry at Archer Huntington too and it was said that whenever his foot came down, he founded a museum. They are still around today, still giving, still educating and still inspiring although he is gone from us now as Ruth Lilly is.

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Poet, translator, editor, and essayist Christian Wiman was raised in West Texas and earned a BA at Washington and Lee University. He received an honorary doctorate from North Central College.
 
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