Totem

By Eamon Grennan b. 1941 Eamon Grennan
All Souls’ over, the roast seeds eaten, I set   
on a backporch post our sculpted pumpkin   
under the weather, warm still for November.   
Night and day it gapes in at us
through the kitchen window, going soft
in the head. Sleepwalker-slow, a black rash of ants   
harrows this hollow globe, munching   
the pale peach flesh, sucking its seasoned   
last juices dry. In a week, when the ants and   
humming flies are done, only a hard remorseless light   
drills and tenants it through and through. Within,   
it turns mould-black in patches, stays   
days like this while the weather takes it   
in its shifty arms: wide eye-spaces shine,   
the disapproving mouth holds firm. Another week,   
a sad leap forward: sunk to one side
so an eye-socket’s almost blocked, it becomes
a monster of its former self. Human, it would have   
rotted beyond unhappiness and horror   
to some unspeakable subject state—its nose   
no more than a vertical hole, the thin   
bridge of amber between nose and mouth   
in ruins. The other socket opens
wider than ever: disbelief.
                                        It’s all downhill
from here: knuckles of sun, peremptory
steady fingers of frost, strain all day and night—
cracking the rind, kneading the knotted fibres   
free. The crown, with its top-knot mockery   
of stalk, caves in; the skull buckles; the whole   
sad head drips tallowy tears: the end
is in sight. In a day or two it topples on itself   
like ruined thatch, pus-white drool spidering   
from the corner of the mouth, worming its way
down the body-post. All dignity to the winds,   
it bows its bogeyman face of dread
to the inevitable.
                           And now, November almost out,   
it is in the bright unseasonable sunshine
a simmer of pulp, a slow bake, amber shell speckled   
chalk-grey with lichen. Light strikes and strikes   
its burst surfaces: it sags, stays at the end of   
its brief tether—a helmet of dark circles, death caul.   
Here is the last umbilical gasp, everybody’s   
nightmare parent, the pitiless system
rubbing our noses in it. But pity poor lantern-head   
with his lights out, glob by greasy glob
going back where he came from: as each seed-shaped   
drop falls free, it catches and clutches
for one split second the light. When the pumpkin   
lapses to our common ground at last—where   
a swaddle of snow will fold it in no time
from sight—I try to take in the empty space it’s left   
on top of the wooden post: it is that empty space.

Eamon Grennan, "Totem" from Out of Sight: New & Selected Poems. Copyright © 2010 by Eamon Grennan.  Reprinted with the permission of Graywolf Press, St. Paul, Minnesota, www.graywolfpress.org.

Source: Out of Sight: New & Selected Poems (Graywolf Press, 2010)

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Poet Eamon Grennan b. 1941

POET’S REGION Ireland

Subjects Nature, Fall

Holidays Halloween, Thanksgiving

 Eamon  Grennan

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Born in Dublin, Eamon Grennan attended boarding school at a Cistercian monastery. He met Derek Mahon and Eavan Boland as an undergraduate at University College, Dublin, spent a year in Rome, and then came to the United States to earn his PhD at Harvard. He began writing poetry in earnest in 1977 and published his first collection, Wildly for Days, in 1983. He lives in the United States but returns frequently to western Ireland, . . .

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SUBJECT Nature, Fall

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