I Have to Go Back to 1994 and Kill a Girl

By Karyna McGlynn b. 1977 Karyna McGlynn
It’s no wonder          I’m always tired          with all these tract houses—
                                    It’s night & cold
on my belly in                                                  the undeveloped field now
                                    I have to bury her
clothing inside                                                a black garbage bag in plot D
police cars roll         past but continue        down the treeless parkway
                                    even after shining       
their lights on                                                  me in my freshman sundress
                                    I can only assume
they don’t see                                                  the significance of my presence
but I must say          1994 is a simpler         time—not everyone is suspect
                                    I crawl up next to
my old house                                                   & look through a lit window
                                    my mother reads
a book in bed            I want to knock           on the glass, there’s something
                                    I need to tell her

Karyna McGlynn, “I Have to Go Back to 1994 and Kill a Girl” from I Have to Go Back to 1994 and Kill a Girl. Copyright © 2009 by Karyna McGlynn. Reprinted by permission of Sarabande Books, Inc. www.sarabandebooks.org

Source: I Have to Go Back to 1994 and Kill a Girl (Sarabande Books, 2009)

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Poet Karyna McGlynn b. 1977

POET’S REGION U.S., Southern

Subjects Living, Coming of Age, Life Choices, Time & Brevity, Relationships, Family & Ancestors, Home Life, Social Commentaries

Poetic Terms Free Verse

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Poet Karyna McGlynn grew up in Austin, Texas, and earned a BA at Seattle University and an MFA at the University of Michigan. She received a Presidential Fellowship for her doctoral studies at the University of Houston. Her debut collection, I Have to Go Back to 1994 and Kill a Girl (2009), won the Kathryn A. Morton Prize from Sarabande Books. Her work has been featured in the anthology Best American Nonrequired Reading (2010).
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SUBJECT Living, Coming of Age, Life Choices, Time & Brevity, Relationships, Family & Ancestors, Home Life, Social Commentaries

POET’S REGION U.S., Southern

Poetic Terms Free Verse

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