#104 from The Poems of Gaius Valerius Catullus

By Brandon Brown Brandon Brown

with Dana Ward

with Dana Ward
 
 
I have so little want of activity
even writing with its pain more terrible than life
I don’t want but do because I’m kind of stupid finally
not in the way, you, Sarah know I am
nor, you reader, who think of me fishing.
Line, spindle, lure, bait. Instruments for me
are accessories, even the matchbook is only
a tiara to my eyes, the fishing lure a long
& white bracelet. Some of my
so-called friends think of me as a derelict
they always try to hold me to account.
“Tell me what happened on the drunken night in question”
On the witness stand I am a kitten
terribly cute but I can’t say a thing
about stupid, or fish, or last night.
I like to lay at the base of a hill
asleep while the shepherds work
bringing things to heel with tepid will where I source
my contempt in the index of swill.
The entries there make no mention of hell
which was sifted through the vale of tears, & fell
to make Earth, & the base of this hill where I sunbathe & murmur
‘jealous cellmate’ as my willful peers go by.

Brandon Brown, "104" [I have so little want of activity...] from The Poems of Gaius Valerius Catullus. Copyright © 2011 by Brandon Brown.  Reprinted by permission of Krupskaya.

Source: The Poems of Gaius Valerius Catullus (Krupskaya, 2011)

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POET’S REGION U.S., Western

Subjects Living, Life Choices, The Mind, Relationships, Friends & Enemies, Arts & Sciences, Poetry & Poets, Reading & Books, Social Commentaries, Crime & Punishment

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Brandon Brown is the author of The Persians By Aeschylus, The Poems of Gaius Valerius Catullus, and Flowering Mall. In 2012, his debut play Charles Baudelaire the Vampire Slayer was staged at Small Press Traffic’s Poet’s Theater. He publishes small press materials under the imprint OMG! and lives in Oakland.

In November 2012, Brown was a featured writer for Harriet.

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SUBJECT Living, Life Choices, The Mind, Relationships, Friends & Enemies, Arts & Sciences, Poetry & Poets, Reading & Books, Social Commentaries, Crime & Punishment

POET’S REGION U.S., Western

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