Homeless and never sadder,
dragging bags, spending money,
leaning over luggage,
suddenly saying, “Without you, God,
I can’t continue.” Who was that?
And then I lift it and walk
to find one book.
Up Iffley Turn to the Hawkwell and Tree Inns
and down over a lock
into an extended filthy river
through the Thames Valley
and over a meadow into town:
one fishing and one man on a bike
swerving through Cotswold cow pads.
“Do you know the fastest way
to City Centre?”
No, yes, no!
Circle Magdalen College, and the mall, the High,
Broad Street, po and Headington Hill,
Brookside and Christ Church,
cross big pavement stones and cobbles
and down North Parade, Maison Blanc, Browns,
the Phoenix Cinema on Walton Street
where you can bring your wine into the film.
white dust, condiments, Pret Manger,
T.S. Eliot, Philip Larkin, smelly markets, buskers
on a harp
and a xylophone, buses and bicycles.
Red-faced riotously quiet British. . . .
Earl green carpets and rotten wood frames,
lavender, and buttery daisies,
flagelot beans, bar food, the stink of perfumes
over toilets, Blackwell has none,
St. Philips does, what are you looking for:
(There are so many mental ways
and Abbot Patrick in his cassock stands high above
and smiles and says You see? It’s all right
the church is in ruins.)
The devil runs the world was Adam’s discovery
and now it is time to pray
before Blake’s engravings of the double bind.
I made this fruit for you. Don’t eat it!
“Do you carry The Seven Storey Mountain?”
Everything you see is finished.
Even the ground underfoot and ahead.
The stars and the dancing planets—over.
A grand finale unfolds across the lens.
There is no present.
The book is out of print.