I want you to know
how it felt to hold it,
deep in the well of my eye.
You, future person: star of one of my
complicated dooms —
This one’s called Back to the Dark.
Scene 1: Death stampedes through the server-cities.
Somehow we all end up living in caves, foraging in civic ruin.
— the last
of the last of my kind who can read
breathes it hot
into your doom-rimed ear.
She’s a dowser of spine-broken books and loose paper
the rest of your famishing band thinks mad.
Mine was the era
of spending your time
in town squares made out of air.
You invented a face
and moved it around, visited briefly
Thus we streamed
down lit screens
sharing pictures of animals looking ridiculous —
trading portals to shoes, love, songs, news, somebody’s latest
rabid cause: bosses, gluten, bacon, God —
Information about information was the pollen we
while in the real fields bees starved.
Into this noise sailed
It was a mother ship of gold.
Shining out between happy bday katie
and a photo of someone’s broken toe —
Like luminous pillows cocked on a hinge,
like a house
with a heavy lid, a round house of platelets and honey —
It was open,
like a box that holds a ring.
And inside, where the ring would be:
I think about you a lot, future person.
How you will need
all the books that were ever read
when the screens and wires go dumb.
Whatever you haven’t used
for kindling or bedding.
Whatever made it through
the fuckcluster of bombs
we launched accidentally,
at the end of the era of feeling like no one
was doing a thing
about our complicated dooms —
Helpless and braced we sat in dark spaces
submerged in pools of projected images,
trying to disappear into light —
Light! There was so much light!
Even now when I say it, cymbals
shiver out in spheres. It starts to turn its
and opens like a clam. Revealing
a fetal curl on its temple floor,
under lit strings that stretch
We broke the world
you’re living in,
that was always our end:
to break the jungles to get at the sugar, leave behind
There came a time
I couldn’t look at trees without
feeling elegiac — as if nature
It was the most glorious thing I had ever seen.
Cross-section of a banana under a microscope
I hunched around my little screen
sharing a fruit no one could eat.