Thinking of It

Here before the sun rises, I find it difficult to make the words, to lean
forward three years after your death & unable to say for sure if I’ve
mentioned how in those first days our daughter would come & sit—
sweet, bewildered comfort—& lift her arm around me. In the darkness
of our new home, I search the nearness of your ordinary box, the
speckled dust & grit of what I imagine are your bones first in my hands
& then in my lap. Like some cruel joke, this closeness, & equally
absurd I ask aloud what you want for Christmas. Would you like to
close your eyes & feel the breeze? Claim the end of summer among the
dragonflies in our yard? Would you come to us & hold our daughter?

Source: Poetry (July/August 2025)